What a week...make that the whole month in fact...its been a pile load of highs and lows. Been going through a whirlwind of emotions, and the mood has been swinging like a pendulum...kabhi high tide, kabhi low tide...it's simply crazy!The lows last week: S Aunty left us. Not an immediate blood relative, but the bond was closer than one. Just goes to show that blood is not thicker than water. And that adages are not true after all. Her no-nonsense strong attitude might have given off the wrong vibes and for most of my life, I didn't like her one bit. Around 6-7 years ago, that changed completely to a feeling of respect and gratitude. She was loved by each member of my family for her strength, courage in the face of adversity, and positive thinking. She opened her heart and home to me in my hour of need, and for that I am eternally grateful. That gratitude, however, is nothing compared to the respect I have for her and her husband, for being themselves. There are so many others in the clan that are older and are still around, why did He take you away from us? If it was to deliver you from the last days of your suffering, then it was probably a good thing. We are selfish in wanting you with us, but hope you are in a happier place. Miss you terribly, aunt S.
The highs last week:
The funeral was on the morning of my birthday and it sorta did me in. The highs fanned out eventually when happiness flew in from unexpected quarters...old pals that am not regularly in touch with, and would never have expected them to wish me, let alone remember my birthday, made their presence felt. Newer, more recent friends that have come to mean a lot despite the distance between us, in more ways than one, almost completely turned the day around with surprises galore. I was deeply touched and very very thrilled at the same time. Given my topsy turvy emotional state of mind of late, it was havoc, but of the very pleasant kind.
Some neat gifts and cooler memories boosted my sagging spirits. Affection demonstrated is the most amazing pill that medicine can never ever compete with. The day ended with a dinner where everyone turned delinquent and created a ruckus in a posh eatery. Fun times fo' sho'! :-)
The other high last week was meeting an online pal at her wedding reception. There couldn't have been a better occassion to get together. In short, it was grand! Have met quite a few online pals over the years, and many still to meet (some goal, that!), but this was special, and she knows why :-) The experience brought me immense joy and a high of a different kind.
Congrats once again, Sash and Viv! Let's toast to happier occassions to get together again in the future! Yes, the toast can be OJ only :P
The lowest of lows and very cool highs all in the span of a few days! That too, in quick succession...wonder what God is trying to tell me. Not sure if I'll even pick up the many signs correctly...let alone read, comprehend, and imbibe them.
Inshaallah, clarity will come forth, today or tomorrow! Wishful thinking?
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